Know where you stand: Modern Day Locations blended with Major Historical Events by Seth Taras
1. The Hindenberg Disaster of May 6, 1937
2. Allied soldiers rushing the beach at Normandy in June 1944
3. The fall of the Berlin Wall in 1989
4. Adolf Hitler touring Paris and standing in front of the Eiffel Tower in 1940
”People can change.
In 8 months you can change your life like I did change mine.
This video is 4 years old today.
It was not my first video on the condition, but the video that went viral around the world and exploded awareness in the Trichotillomania Community over the years.
I was 16.
-I had barely any knowledge of the condition, other than my own experiences.
-I did not know that millions of others across the world had the condition too. I thought I was on my own.
-There were only a handful of videos out there to do with Trich available at the time of this creation. Most of which were short dramatic news reports. My video was one of the very first.
-I had very little experience on life events, only being 16 at the time, such as relationships/work etc.
-Within a month of this video being published, I lost half my hair. Over the next few years, I have continued to lose my hair severely. My idea of “hair loss” is very different to what I considered as “hair loss”, in 2009.
I am no longer that girl in that video. Now, I am 20 going on 21.
This is me wearing a wig:
This is me without a wig, completely bald:
Everything has changed:
-I am in contact with hundreds of thousands of people across the world with the condition.
-I continue to receive tens of thousands of messages/comments/letters from others with the condition.
-The video has been viewed nearly 800,000 times and my total video view count across all my videos is at 10 million. Half of those views are on videos that relate to Trichotillomania.
-Content online has grown so much in the last 4 years. Awareness has grown at an amazing rate - just look at Tumblr. In 2009, there was so little available to people with the condition. It was a completely different world.
-I continue go through many cycles of severe hair loss and had to shave my head 5 times due to the severity. Trichotillomania is still a part of my daily life and I tend to always have bald patches - on show.
-I now have a range of wigs to wear.
-This video shows my Trichotillomania and Depression struggles clearly, over the last 5 years:
-I have experienced prejudice in the work place and from partners in relationships, due to my Trichotillomania. “No one wants a bald girlfriend”. These events have given me new challenges with the condition.
-I won an award for my work on Trichotillomania. The Mind Speaking Out Award, in 2011.
-I now have a different perspective of the condition. I feel that it’s not about stopping the pulling or “being pull free” but accepting yourself.
-I’m at a difficult point with my Trichotillomania. The battle is always ongoing, it is with me every moment of my life and is part of who I am. As a content creator, vlogger, filmmaker with a hair loss condition, especially on this scale, it can be very hard for me not to be defined by my Trichotilllomania.
-Thankyou for all the support over the years. It’s a hard condition to know what to say, and the constant cycle of “progress” and failure is very hard to cope with at times. Thankyou for comments of kindness and your helpful suggestions. Thankyou for allowing me to be me.
-I am Rebecca Brown the content creator, NOT Beckie0 the Trich girl :).
-I’m going to start this: http://www.youtube.com/trichotillomania
-You can find me here: http://www.youtube.com/becca
Lately, I’ve been feeling down, way down. There’s not enough time and decisions are fucking hard for me. If I had the money, I’d pack up mine and Ben’s bags and move to Tennessee. I have realized yesterday how complacent and comfortable I have become with my life. I need to find a better job and find a reason to go back to school so I can get that better job. WHAT DO I LIKE AND WHAT AM I EVEN GOOD AT? nothing. I have nothing. I feel like my soul has been drained out of me. I don’t care for art much any more, and my brain feels like spaghetti when I think about school work. I’ve fucked myself over once again. I have to get out of this before I go insane and start starving myself again, or driving Ben up the wall with my fits of rage. I have lost a lot of self control lately.
On a higher note; Yesterday was my 2nd anniversary with Ben. I love him. I gave him his record, and he gave me a Victoria’s Secret gift card (that doesn’t work right now.) Last night, while laying down in his dark room, listening to our puppy breath heavy, he randomly said, “I want you. I only want it to be you.” (Something along those lines.) Then he hugged me tighter and kissed my forehead. I know we’ve had some major downs, but those are in the past, and I have to learn to get over all of it and live in today and remember what he said last night. We went to Chinese for dinner and one of our cookies said this, “Don’t let the past and useless details choke your existence.” Ben told me I should keep it and to listen to it. I am.