Know where you stand: Modern Day Locations blended with Major Historical Events by Seth Taras
1. The Hindenberg Disaster of May 6, 1937
2. Allied soldiers rushing the beach at Normandy in June 1944
3. The fall of the Berlin Wall in 1989
4. Adolf Hitler touring Paris and standing in front of the Eiffel Tower in 1940
”People can change.
In 8 months you can change your life like I did change mine.
This video is 4 years old today.
It was not my first video on the condition, but the video that went viral around the world and exploded awareness in the Trichotillomania Community over the years.
I was 16.
-I had barely any knowledge of the condition, other than my own experiences.
-I did not know that millions of others across the world had the condition too. I thought I was on my own.
-There were only a handful of videos out there to do with Trich available at the time of this creation. Most of which were short dramatic news reports. My video was one of the very first.
-I had very little experience on life events, only being 16 at the time, such as relationships/work etc.
-Within a month of this video being published, I lost half my hair. Over the next few years, I have continued to lose my hair severely. My idea of “hair loss” is very different to what I considered as “hair loss”, in 2009.
I am no longer that girl in that video. Now, I am 20 going on 21.
This is me wearing a wig:
This is me without a wig, completely bald:
Everything has changed:
-I am in contact with hundreds of thousands of people across the world with the condition.
-I continue to receive tens of thousands of messages/comments/letters from others with the condition.
-The video has been viewed nearly 800,000 times and my total video view count across all my videos is at 10 million. Half of those views are on videos that relate to Trichotillomania.
-Content online has grown so much in the last 4 years. Awareness has grown at an amazing rate - just look at Tumblr. In 2009, there was so little available to people with the condition. It was a completely different world.
-I continue go through many cycles of severe hair loss and had to shave my head 5 times due to the severity. Trichotillomania is still a part of my daily life and I tend to always have bald patches - on show.
-I now have a range of wigs to wear.
-This video shows my Trichotillomania and Depression struggles clearly, over the last 5 years:
-I have experienced prejudice in the work place and from partners in relationships, due to my Trichotillomania. “No one wants a bald girlfriend”. These events have given me new challenges with the condition.
-I won an award for my work on Trichotillomania. The Mind Speaking Out Award, in 2011.
-I now have a different perspective of the condition. I feel that it’s not about stopping the pulling or “being pull free” but accepting yourself.
-I’m at a difficult point with my Trichotillomania. The battle is always ongoing, it is with me every moment of my life and is part of who I am. As a content creator, vlogger, filmmaker with a hair loss condition, especially on this scale, it can be very hard for me not to be defined by my Trichotilllomania.
-Thankyou for all the support over the years. It’s a hard condition to know what to say, and the constant cycle of “progress” and failure is very hard to cope with at times. Thankyou for comments of kindness and your helpful suggestions. Thankyou for allowing me to be me.
-I am Rebecca Brown the content creator, NOT Beckie0 the Trich girl :).
-I’m going to start this: http://www.youtube.com/trichotillomania
-You can find me here: http://www.youtube.com/becca
Lately, I’ve been feeling down, way down. There’s not enough time and decisions are fucking hard for me. If I had the money, I’d pack up mine and Ben’s bags and move to Tennessee. I have realized yesterday how complacent and comfortable I have become with my life. I need to find a better job and find a reason to go back to school so I can get that better job. WHAT DO I LIKE AND WHAT AM I EVEN GOOD AT? nothing. I have nothing. I feel like my soul has been drained out of me. I don’t care for art much any more, and my brain feels like spaghetti when I think about school work. I’ve fucked myself over once again. I have to get out of this before I go insane and start starving myself again, or driving Ben up the wall with my fits of rage. I have lost a lot of self control lately.
On a higher note; Yesterday was my 2nd anniversary with Ben. I love him. I gave him his record, and he gave me a Victoria’s Secret gift card (that doesn’t work right now.) Last night, while laying down in his dark room, listening to our puppy breath heavy, he randomly said, “I want you. I only want it to be you.” (Something along those lines.) Then he hugged me tighter and kissed my forehead. I know we’ve had some major downs, but those are in the past, and I have to learn to get over all of it and live in today and remember what he said last night. We went to Chinese for dinner and one of our cookies said this, “Don’t let the past and useless details choke your existence.” Ben told me I should keep it and to listen to it. I am.
I’ve had a lot of animosity lately towards the human race, particularly the people (or monsters) I have to work with and for. Humans are terrible creatures because we allow negativity and selfishness get in the way of others and even our planet. I hate the fact that I am always thinking, “I hate that bitch” or “I hate the majority of the human race.” It’s disgusting to know that I think like this, and I shouldn’t, but I do because of my environment. I’m not wanting people to change themselves or who they are, I just want them to realize how hideous, monstrous, and idiotic they act and look. I’m not saying that I’m better than anyone because I know for a fact that I’m not. I just know that I’m usually a decent human being when ever I don’t have hate in my heart.
what the actual fuckkk? language is a beautiful fucking damn thing.
I haven’t posted in a long ass time. So why not?
Things have been up and down, I got a job, loved it, now I hate it and almost every human that works there. Ben and I have been wonderful. I always wondered when I would question my love for him and I finally did about a month ago, I wasn’t so sure any more. That’s the past, and I was being ridiculous and over-thinking everything. He gave me the best valentines day ever. It’s like he’s a completely different person compared to last year, and I love that, and I love him.
My friends Jesus, Bitchin, and her boyfriend D&D *code names for privacy reasons* (and Ben of course) have all been chatting about the idea of all 5 of us living together in a house, walking distance to town. It was a great idea for a couple of weeks. I’ve been thinking about it, and NO it is not a good idea. “Bitchin” is a fucking bitch. She is self-centered, pretentious, and a “wanna be slut.” She doesn’t say it directly, but she has called me fat, said that my clothes sucked, and that I’m dumb. She is not my favorite person right now. I don’t want to live with her. EVER. I wouldn’t mind living with Jesus and Ben or just Ben, and surprisingly, Ben is fine with that.
PUUUUUUUUUPPYYY! I might become a puppy momma at the end of this month. Ben and I are going to possibly venture out and get a Chesapeake Bay Retriever. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!? yayayayay!
I put them side by side so its easier for me to compare…it still doesnt look like i’ve lost 25lb between pictures to me though. unless a lot has come off my bum and i just cant see it? IDK…………..whatever happens i want to get as far away from THAT as possible so evidently i still have a lot more weight to lose.
You have such sexy curves!
Those fucking hips. I wish!
Body, why couldn’t you proportion yourself like this? She looks amazing!
Wow, she is beautiful (before & during)